You can see my heart...beating...

woke up the the delivery guy.... lilies my favorite flower.

Listening to: Rihanna-Russian Roulette
So I had a bit of a meltdown yesterday while talking to *Patrick. I've been frustrated without him, haven't been feeling good, I just want my body back to normal, I'm nervous about my upcoming certifications I have only had a month to prepare, and I have never been good at studying. I'm frustrated financially, I'm not where I want to be. I wanted to cry all day yesterday even while watching Sex and the City...I held back my tears they wanted to come out for no reason! Then when I started talking to Patrick I just melted. He has a way of making me open up. I felt better after I cried. I'm a girl and I need to cry every once in a while :)

she's the cutest thing in the world...

You could give me anything but love....

Listening to:Apocolypta- Anything but Love

ask me anything here!

Going to see Sex and the City 2 tonight. Bummed I couldn't see it last night...not enough hours in the day! Will be back later tonight to give my reviews. Got my hair done! It's boootiful. I almost added some color in it, but it would have cost me a lot more and you barely would have seen anything. So I just went all black and got my hair trimmed, put some layers in the top. That's about it! Feels a million times better. Here's a couple of pics from a couple of nights ago xoxoxo

First Video up babes!!!

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I wish this could last forever...

So I'm feeling sooo much better today! No idea what the hell is going on if I'm pregnant or just ate something I wasn't suppose to... we will see. It is what it is.

Getting ready to put my video up on my profile...just adding some music!! It's just a teaser video but I'm so exicted and cannot believe I actually accomplished something on the computer by myself!! Pat for myself on the back hehe. I think I might wait until I get my hair done...grrrr it's really ticking me off! I look like a hippie lol

This summer is going to be one crazy ass summer!! I have so much planned it's nutty. June and July I have yoga and fitness certifications I have to study for. The end of July my bff from Maui is coming to visit me and see some Lady GaGa!! So stoked for that. My guy friend is moving here from the south when he gets back from Iraq..so we are looking for a house or will be in July. Plus I have yoga classes the weekend we are suppose to move...ahh!! I hope I can make it to the OHC model/staff get-together whenever that is!! I would be upset if I couldnt make it.

xoxoxo

Uh-Oh...

So the past 2 days I have been non stop nauseas/tired... I slept for 10 hours last night and was exhausted the entire day. My appetite is virtually nothing because I'm so nauseated but I know I have to eat. I had my second migraine last night. I'm TERRIFIED I might be pregnant. What's even scarier...the father is in Iraq for the next three months. Not to mention the fact that I'm not financially, emotionally or mentally ready to have a child...idk what to do! Should I go get a couple pregnancy tests or should I wait to see if I have a missed period? I would think if I am pregnant I need to know ASAP. I know I would be a good mother and he would be a good father. It would just be absolutely nuts. We havent had a chance to fully explore where our relationship could go...its very scary.

On a more positive note I'm getting my hair done Thursday! So freaking excited. I havent had it cut in a good 6 or 7 months I've been growing my hair. But it's been driving me crazy so I'm caving and getting it cut. I wills till keep it long just put some layers in the top half. I'm also going to put a few peek-a-boos of blonde or carmel around my face. I will post pics :)

I'm so glad Nicole and Derek won DWTS!! They definately deserved it. I knew all along without a doubt that they would win. No one can beat Derek's choreography and hello! Nicole is a f*cking pussycat doll. She's the best dancer, likeable, and has the fan base. Spells winner to me :)

Hi HI!!

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